So I am struggling with balance. Help me out, guys!
While running 12miles this morning, I thought about how running affects my life. But not just my life, but everyone who is involved with me. Example 1: my boyfriend and I were chilling on Friday night when he hands me a beer. I tell him about my run in the morning, which means I go to bed super early so we don't get to hang out and watch the movie he wants me to watch. (If you know me, I have terrible taste in movies. I can quote Mean Girls and I love Legally Blond. Date someone who has a taste for well made movies and you'll see how easy it is to chose a movie on Friday nights.) I was thinking about how my run interupts my dating life. I run on SATURDAYS so Saturday we can hang out, stay up late and eat whatever. I think about how we eat dinner together and how he has to wait for ME to get home from the gym.
Then, I think about my friends. How I can't go out for happy hour or dinner during training. Or my poor friends who actually work out with me. They go along with my long workouts.
I think about my job and my schedule with that. I come in early so I can leave right away to go work out. I say "No" to people/meetings when I have a run. I mean, obviously if it is important, my run can wait.
Then, I think about myself and how if I have a TERRIBLE day, I skip my run and go home and drink wine while lamenting to my boyfriend. Then, I feel guilty about skipping my work out.
Now, training now is INTENSE. My 1/2 marathon is in less than 4 weeks. Only two more long runs to go (one 8 and one 12 before taper!) Then, I won't focus on RUNNING as much, See, drinking/staying up late affects me way worse with running than say spin or swim. I sound like a lush, but I am in my 20's, so I like to have a good time. And I live in Wisconsin, for crying out loud, which Milwaukee is the #1 drunkest city in the US. The only thing to do here is meet people for drinks. And I went to a dry college. Enough said.
Alright so...my question is: how to balance? How to balance work, play and sweat. Work is obviously set 8-4, but teachers know we dont work 8-4. We take work home. We come in early. We stay late. I sleep until 6:15. I do not do mornings well. I LOVE working out in the afternoons. I feel so much better running off the stress of the day.
Anyways, I am not actually cheating on my boyfriend. I feel I am cheating him out of quality time with me. I know he doesn't mind it all the time, but I'm sure he does sometimes. By the way, he bought me this super cute giraffe necklace the other day. :)
Oh, and sometimes I cheat on my runs. Meaning I stop early or don't go quite as far. It's all about listening to your body and doing what feels right...right?!